It's been a while since I've blogged. I've been getting my bearings on being a mom.
If that ever happens?
I had some rough spots at first.
Engorgement issues,
small case of Mastitis, twice.
Really yucky baby blues.
But really, other than that, this whole mommy thing I think I can do.
Tobyn is such a perfect baby.
I'm slightly bias, but he only cries when he has a reason to.
And he lets us sleep a pretty fair amount.
I think we were blessed super huge on this one.
We recently moved from the town we lived in, where Jonathan and I met, where it all began.
That was hard, but we moved into a house, so no worrying about keeping up neighbors in an apartment with a crying baby. Super awesome.
We are close to family, his family.
Even farther from mine now, which is difficult.
Going to see them is a huge ordeal and very stressful. Tobyn is NOT a "ride the baby around in the car to get him to stop crying" kind of baby. He hates the car.
Trying to think about my future, my families future.
I want to go back to school, I know I need to do it now. Or so I'm told I will never go back. I'm seeing what I can do.
My issue I'm having right now, as far as mommy business, is balancing being a mom and being myself. I'm still trying to understand that I, myself, am a mom now.
They are not two people, but one that have to coincide with one another.
It's like I sometimes have an issue taking off the mommy hat and putting on the Lyndsey hat when needed or necessary. I'm trying not to loose myself entirely.
Did anyone else have this issue? What helped you?
Lyz
Reading your words felt so familiar to me, when I was just a new mom. And I have to confess I still have moments feeling like that. This adventure called motherhood is so overwhelming one can easily forget about herself.
ReplyDeleteIt took me a few months to adjust to that, but in the end you're still you, now just with a baby. And 2,5 years on it's still hard sometimes, but in a different way.
The essence of you is not gone, but now it's more a case of finding time/space to be you. I'm a really creative person, writing, designing jewelry, but somehow all that has been on a backburner since being a mama. It's not that I don't want to those things, I do, but in the end, spending time with the little one is more important to me.
So I've learned to steal little moments, mostly when she's asleep, and I try to focus my creative attempts on my blog now, I get to do things I like and be able to write about her, take pics of her, so right now that's the perfect way of combining me and being a mama!
But I'm sure you'll do just have. And sometimes we just have to be mama's and not worry about anything else!
Good luck!
love from Belgium,
Cindy
I totally agree with you! I've adjusted much better now, though it is still a struggle to "turn off mama". I've just learned it won't turn off completely, just turn down.
DeleteAnd you are right, taking some time to do things I enjoy and am good at are so refreshing, but usually when I'm done, all I want is my baby boy in my arms.
Thank you for your sweet comment :)
Much love Mama,
Lynds
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ReplyDeleteI totally agree with you! I've adjusted much better now, though it is still a struggle to "turn off mama". I've jist learned it won't turn off completely, just turn down.
ReplyDeleteAnd you are right, taking some time to do things I enjoy and am good at are so refreshing, but usually when I'm done, all I want is my baby boy in my arms.
Thank you for your sweet comment :)
Much love Mama,
Lynds